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desert road

On a dark desert road;
With what’s left of my baggage;
Memories and scars abroad;
Astray, leading this carriage;
All charts I have shredded;
To unchain my soul;
I care not where am headed;
The passage is my goal;
Happy havens are fiction;
And all smiles are forged;
When one of affliction;
Can’t be cleansed and purged;
Between destinations stay, don’t you speed;
For between lashes lay happiness indeed.
©FAT 2018


The tale of my three witches


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A tale to be told;
Of the three witches of mine;
Of a time so cold;
And mine forsaken shrine;

The first took a virgin heart;
And spoke of a future heaven;
Where true life will truly start;
And where all dreams are given;

But by heaven’s door;
These words were spoken;
“Promises I made before-
Are at this moment broken”;

But fear not my dear;
This promise I’ll keep forever;
One day this storm will clear;
And we will be together;

One day we will be one;
And I pray that you will wait;
As soon as my chores are done;
We will fulfil our fate;

Then Seasons passed;
Of drought and flood;
Lilies or roses massed;
For joy or blood;

Till, one day she came;
As she once did before;
And as she spoke my name;
I said “please no more;

Naive I am not, I was;
And yes, Forgiveness I can give;
But I shan’t, just because;
You should have had let me live”

Then more Seasons passed;
On my two knees kneeling;
And from the Lord I asked;
For only peace and healing;

Then came a heavenly dove;
Angelic, soft and tender;
She said “I am, your one true love-
I am your hardship-mender”;

“My walls are high you’ll fail;
And they are like a regiment lined;
I am sure none you can scale;
I am sure none you can grind”

She said time will tell;
And I have no doubt;
I’ll camp here until;
That day you come out;

With time by day I peak;
To see what joy she is bringing;
And when my day grows weak;
I hide, and seek her singing;

Then came a stormy night;
And her voice I could not hear;
Have she left or perhaps she might;
Have been struck by fear;

To see if she had left;
These walls I’ve swiftly conquered;
But upon the last wall that’s left;
My will just withered and faltered;

Against the wall I sadly leaned;
As if I had lost a treasure?
Or have I been blessed and weaned;
Off this senseless pleasure;

Here comes next morn;
And here comes my penance;
How morn could be born;
If not in her presence;

I left my fort behind;
Then sat in my empty field;
Screamed that I have been blind;
Please come back I yield;

The night has finally fallen;
And here comes her voice;
From a distance calling;
“Are you out by choice?”

“Yes indeed I am;
Without you my days are grim;
My heart is an opened clam;
So by thine love please do brim”;

She said “my love you’re-
My love, you’re my heart and soul;
Our love is our only cure;
Our love will make us whole;

At night we shall live;
For my days are by duties chained;
I’ll give as much as I can give;
As I won’t let my vows be stained;

Live by day as will;
Wear smiles and say you’re fine;
Have fun but please don’t tell;
That your sweet heart is mine;

Years of joy went fast;
But then, for daylight I yearned;
Happier I can be at last;
And happiness I have earned;

But I got one reply;
“There is too much at stake;
I can’t and that’s no lie;
But this risk I can’t take;

My kids will be stunned;
And divorce is plain taboo;
Off my finance I will be shunned;
And one day you will hate me too;

I know this is unjust;
And my heart is sore;
I am sorry and please do trust;
I’ll waste your time no more”;

Scarce Words became;
To a tongue that strives;
To say forget my name;
And go play your lives;

Go honor your chains;
And in your duties bask;
Enjoy your chosen gains;
Whilst you wear your mask;

Rotten was her truth;
But worse, is your crime;
She stole my lustful youth;
But you stole my prime;

Our path has parted;
With those unspoken words;
She went where she charted;
And I, to my lonesome wards;

More seasons on seasons spun;
And so did my grief and laughter;
Came new thoughts and quickly gone;
Except for what will come after;

Then came this queen;
With a heart as white;
As moonlight beam is seen;
In the darkest night;

She got my old feelings stirred;
She quelled this lasting thirst;
And although she is my third;
She is somehow my first;

Happy with what we chanced;
We loved, we cared and shared;
We kissed we sang we danced;
But off this tale you’re spared;

At one’s conscious gnaws;
Secrets kept untold;
Destined by nature laws;
With time they will unfold;

Why can’t people see?
Cloaks are not worth it sighs;
For when the truth is free;
All else are only lies;

My past, they have consumed;
But they’ve left my unborn days;
But you deemed my future doomed;
With your lies, and evil ways;

They may have been depraved;
But both I didn’t hate or loath;
It’s my fault, I loved I craved;
And in truth, you’ve sainted both.

That was mine, and my three witches’ tale;
A tale of time ill-spent in vain;
A tale of how one’s reason fail;
A tale of love, torment and pain….
©FAT 2018

a new beginning


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The stars are finally gone;
For a new path was chosen;
Where ranks can’t be leaned upon;
And where true words are spoken;
From now on why should I worry?
And why should I ponder?
When everything we love we’ll burry;
Down Six feet under;
For that past, I won’t care or weep;
And no more, shall I be Courteous;
And for that for once I sleep;
In the arms of Morpheus;
Now a free man I am, with a new path and tale;
And I pray it won’t lead back, to what’s on my trail.
©FAT 2018




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I know now of Life’s lessons;
Memories and thorns;
A will that lessens;
And those i mourn;
I know now of renewing scars;
Wasted chapters and pages;
And even with golden bars;
Cages are simply cages;
Life kindness is kindness not;
It’s always subterfuge;
And a sanctuary is a sanctuary not;
When it’s one’s last refuge;
My days are plagued by a fate as worse;
My scars my tears and their phoenix curse.
©FAT 2017

Salma’s Nightmares


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Holding on to sanity;
By a tiny worn out thread;
Chaos replaced serenity;
And voices roam her head;
One sings of doubts and fear;
One still calls me “friend”;
One is a mighty seer;
That can’t foresee our end;
One sees me as a foe;
One pulls her into darkness;
One always screams “please go”;
One is just pained by brightness;
One wants her to submit;
One makes all sweets taste bitter;
One wants her to admit;
Without her, life is better;

I know you can’t grasp what is real;
I know you can’t fathom this illusion;
And with each broken seal;
Comes more and more confusion;
I still hold on to our memories;
Regardless of our fate’s affairs;
And as you have shared my reveries;
I’ll quest in your nightmares;
I know we can’t emerge victorious;
And our fate cannot be cheated;
Let us make this stand so glorious;
For everything dies defeated;
Food will be served anon;
So I shall take my leave;
Eat your pills and they’ll all be gone;
Please don’t make them grieve;

I will be back soon I promise;
And I will help you take control;
So while we’re gone my goddess;
In darkness don’t you fall;
Abide your time with something;
Except this one thought my dear;
Am I too another thing;
That you do see and hear;
And, what if I was;
Seen and heard just by you;
Don’t I help you rise?
Don’t I see you through?
What could be my heart is broken;
From all this pain you suffer;
And my truth is the greatest token;
That this humble voice can offer
©FAT 2017

Charlie the wanderer


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Alone and behind you are left;
By those whom have unwillingly departed;
Sweet memories are a lasting a gift;
So why are you brokenhearted?
Dear friend, they can’t be sought;
They are forever gone;
More fights must be fought;
So stand up and carry on;
Dear friend the fort must be held;
Your life must go on sigh;
I know not all gaps are filled;
By kind ones that do pass by;
Remember random kindnesses met are only flashes of your past;
Regardless how great life would get nothing will forever last.
©FAT 2017


My sleeping Beauty..


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Blessed be thy heart;
Blessed be thy soul;
May God bless this heavenly art;
May god save this heart you stole;
Excuse the way I stare;
Excuse how my words are whirled;
It’s just that when you are there;
Mine heart seems to flee this world;
Forgive what had escaped;
Forgive what have been exposed;
My strength is now undraped;
Just cause thine eyes are closed;
O Sweet maiden, who in my dreams I keep;
I thank thee for now, I’ve seen how angels sleep.
©FAT 2017

Hate me


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Mock my disabilities;
Mock the way I walk;
My limited possibilities;
Or the way I talk;
Mock my weight;
Mock the way I look;
Mock what’s been given by fate;
Or what fate once took;
Sympathy I do not require;
And empathy is a virtue;
You know not what you might acquire;
Or how much it will hurt you;
Mock, scorn or laugh, you can freely choose;
Just know you would not last a day if you wore shoes.

Hate me because I am poor;
Hate me for my days are fights;
Hate me for I have no door;
And no bed most nights;
Use me as an example;
When you and your kids walk by;
Tell them I used to gamble;
Or it’s the drugs that I sell and try;
I am none of the above;
And without a chance, I was born;
Life didn’t show me love;
And I don’t deserve your scorn;
Life can always worsen, so thank our Lord;
That you are this person so well fed and clothed.

Hate me for what I cannot change;
Hate me for my race or color;
Outlandish I might seem or strange;
But I bleed the same my brother;
Say my life is of no worth;
For here my name is not well known;
Strangers we are on this earth;
And one day we’ll all be gone;
We fled afraid and scared;
And harm we don’t mean;
And I pray that you are spared;
The horrors we have lived and seen;
I came for a chance to live and that I won’t hide;
I’ll give where I can give Just leave alone my pride.

Hate me for my faith;
Hate me for what I believe in;
Call me a mindless wraith;
Call it a blasphemous sin;
Judge my faith as it was given;
Judge me by my actions and words;
Judge not by who in vain have striven;
Judge not by the few crazed hordes;
All are equal, and no one is above the law;
Thou shall not kill and thou shall not steal;
Forsake lust, pride and greed and from lies withdraw;
Bear not false witness and the truth reveal;
Give to the poor;
Accept what God had fated;
Be just even in war;
Be kind to all what God created;
That’s my belief and that is what I uphold;
So judge me by my actions, not by what you’ve been told.
©FAT 2017